Heavy leg day today. Back squats with 25lb plates x10 reps superset with single leg lunges with 20lb dumb bells x10reps per leg. Deadlifts with 10lb plates x12 reps superset with 20x plie squats with 35lb dumbbell. Front squats with 10lb plates x10 reps superset with curtseys with 25lb dumbbell. butt bridges x12reps superset with bench step ups with 20lb dumbbells.
Feeling a bit better today. Such a long process unloving someone. He is always on my mind. Hoping he is just as miserable. I want the whole crazy, stupid love though and refuse to settle for less. I still feel good about my decision but I miss my best friend.
Did a yoga flow class tonight…was very challenging and felt really good. Cleared my mind and just thought of nothing but the movement and how my body felt. Ate super clean today and overall a good day! Tomorrow will be a heavy leg day
Took a day off yesterday to work and hang out with my kids. Bought a new protein powder and decided to go with this brand due to the fact that it’s lactose free and has lots of good reviews.
Still need to get BCAA’s, multi-vitamin and glutamine. Weighed in today at 143.7lbs. Really need to concentrate on getting my legs cut…doing lots of glutes and getting that outer sweep on my quads – squats, lunges, deadlifts!!
Had to say goodbye to a dear person just before Christmas and have finally adjusted to life without our daily chats. Life needs to move forward and when you get stuck in the present without any chance of future, you need to evaluate.
Press on with life and lock that precious part of my life away, safe and snug.
Did an hour of TRX yesterday and found it quite easy and didn’t really break much of a sweat. That’s the problem with group exercise classes at the gym where you get all fitness levels participating..
Still a total body workout. I remember doing a TRX class 1.5 yrs ago and struggling. I’ve come a long way!
Did a HIIT workout Friday and boy did it suck everything out of me. I was spent at the end!
- 12x 45lb bar deadlift to upright row, right away to
- 12x medicine ball squat jumps (20 second break)
- 12x renegade rows with 12.5 dumbbells (plank, row each arm and then jump feet to hands and back), right away to
- 12x 45lb bar front squats (20 second break)
- 12x cross body pushups, right away to
- 12x burpees (no pushup, just jackknife legs in and out) (20 second break)
- 12x bulgarian split squats with 12.5lb dumbbells, right away to
- 12x tricep dips on a bench
1 minute rest and then repeat the whole sequence two more times
Had my cheat meal afterwards of a plain burger and fries ( I know! lol)
Didn’t accomplish much today. Had the girls and didn’t get to the gym but I did eat clean except for an almond biscotti with my coffee at Starbucks. Planning to do hot yoga tomorrow as well as chest and triceps.
Going through a breakup isn’t fun and I’m having a hard time keeping my brain from going over things again and again along with the wonder if there is anyone out there for me. Read a poem by Pablo Neuruda that just spoke to me…
I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.
I love you only because it’s you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
… Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.
Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.
In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.
So true as I flip flop between hating him and loving him. The adage “sometimes love isn’t enough” is so very true…you can both be in love and have things working against you and no matter how hard you try, it just doesn’t work.